Chapter 7 is finally out!
Hoo boy, was this chapter a chore to handle! A great many things happened during the production of this chapter, but don’t worry, I won’t get down into the details. However, there is something I came to a conclusion to while making this chapter, and if you don’t mind, I’d like to share this with all of you.
(If you hate TL;DR stuff, feel free to skip to the last paragraph and continue reading the chapter below! No worries!)
I know I said, a long time ago, that I’d break down chapters into parts for more frequent releases, and for a short period of time, it seemed to be working. Unfortunately, life as we know it, is unpredictable. So much so that this 32 page chapter took nearly as long as Chapter 6 did (Chapter 6 = 9 months/ Chapter 7 (Part 1) = 7 months), and chapter 6 had 82 pages.
I sacrificed time from many things (family, friends, myself) to make time for this chapter, all of which were in vain, as whatever problems we had at the time never left, work was still slow and my self-esteem only dropped. Eventually, as much as I’d wanted to avoid them, I found myself making the same choices I made before I burnt out in late 2016 (that being: work before anyone else, including me). However, with the help of MamaWis, Mike, Neo and Amirul (Aloysius was busy with University/College), they helped me realise that I had one other choice.
It was then when I reached a conclusion.
Sacrificing the time I could have spent on all these things (family, friends, myself), only made working harder to cope with and it didn’t speed things up one bit. In fact, sacrificing all that time sometimes made situations worse; by not giving the people that matter the attention they need. There’s a lot of guilt in that too. So the moral of the story is, given time, your problems and work will eventually pass, so why bother sacrificing everything else to try and speed it up. I’m not saying that I’ll be taking my own sweet ass time to finish MMO from now on, no. I’ll still work hard to get a release every 3 months! What I AM saying though, is to make sure you have your priorities right, unlike me. ‘Work’ is not worth sacrificing the time you COULD have spent with the people you should, and sometimes it’s better to let problems ‘eventually’ solve themselves.
It’s hypocritical of me that in the past I had mentioned that ‘family’ and ‘the people you hold dear’ come first. I guess sometimes I get so caught up with wanting to get stuff done, I forget all of this and end up looking like a fool, as everyone gets sacrificed (not literally of course) for a price that’s not worth paying. So, please, learn from my mistake.
On a last note, it’s funny that I only remember this now, but I’ve had someone in the past tell me that everyone juggles five balls in their lives; family, friends, health, spirit and work. Of which, ‘work’ is a rubber ball, while every other ball is made of glass. Meaning you could drop the rubber ball, and it would probably bounce back, but drop any one of the rest and they’ll never be the same, or gone for good. (You could probably google this metaphor today though, lol)
Anyway! That’s it from me! Sorry about the long ass story, but I hope it helps some of you out there! Rambling aside, I thank you for your patience and understanding, and I hope you’ll enjoy the read! Do let me know what you think in the comments, I’d love to hear your thoughts! Don’t forget to read from right to left!